My last letter to the world

Hi, my name is Floraine Thwin. I am the author/book reviewer/ blogger/writer. I am the only child of my mother who gave birth with many diseases and impossible person to live alive like a normal one. I only stayed 8 months inside my mom’s womb. My father always said “I am the baby who must die before I arrive to the world”. The doctor said my mom to not to put a hope over me because the child like me couldn’t live longer than 10 years old. Most of the baby like me are autism or having many disabilities on eyes, movements and can’t even say a word over mouth, they named Cerebral palsy disease. Before I faced much difficulties, unkindness and cruelty from the world outside my home, I think why they hated me that much. I am the personal who had impossible living and poor family who couldn’t support me to finish my education. Now, I lack of hope over living in this cruel world. I know my situation it’s hard for me to survive over March 2021. Because I lack of money in bank saving account or in hand, I had no job in local like formal, I had a job from foreign which will make sanctions soon over the country I lived. So, what else can I do for living alive or survive. I did everything I can but the cruel companies in my country didn’t accept my skills or they never did hire me or pay me. All my last words and last things I can do to tell the people the poor person with weak fate is still here alive in Myanmar, Yangon. I will continue reading the book, writing the review and publishing my last books until I die. I am waiting for die because I had no foods to eat, no money to buy, no money for electricity so I had no water to drink. Knowing the moments to dead is hard but it will over when I leave the world. I won’t feel hunger, I won’t feel hurt or I won’t feel hard in life anymore. I will meet my family who passed away, I won’t be alone anymore. There is no hope left for me to survive. I will say goodbye to the world soon. This is me, please remember me after I die. There is the girl who faced problems in life was stay there and living alive hardly who had no power or family or anything, just have hope. Now, there is neither hope nor fate for me to live.